The other day I read one of my favourite blogs and left a comment saying that by reading the blog I realised that what was 'wrong' with my art was the fact that I have not dyed my own fabric for a long time. By this I meant everything seems to be using fabric designed/created by someone else and not having my own input.
The owner of that blog has written the following email as a response. My comments follow that. I wanted to share this with the Universe in the hope it will finally be the release I need. So THANKS - you know who you are!
Thank you for leaving a comment on my blog.
I just wanted to say that there is absolutely nothing 'wrong' with your art.
You've just hit a block at this moment in time, like we all do now and again, and reading between the lines
I think that the more you are worrying about it the worse it is getting.
Your work is wonderful. You really have nothing to worry about at all.
You don't really need to do a degree course either, you are already way past that.
But I know your reasoning behind it, exactly the same as why I am (struggling) to
do C&G. Its because it helps you focus. But I find now that blogging helps me do that
just as well.
Just carry on as you are Anna, everyone already thinks highly of the work you produce.
I almost cried reading this message - THANK YOU so much - I feel really humbled by your comments. I have never thought of my work as being 'way past' degree level and I really appreciate it! You are also right about my worrying and it is getting worse. I lost focus when Val Campbell Harding died - I know that may sound daft but she was such a close (in both distance and emotion) person to me, she encouraged etc that without her I feel lost, even though I was not actively on a course with her just before she died I was able to invade any of her classes at Urchfont to see what was going on and by just being there I was encouraged.
I know I will let go if I can finish grieving and I want to continue in her memory.
I think you may be right about a degree - I think it's mainly because I was prevented from going to Uni when I was younger (by a very strict family) and now that both my children have/ or almost have degrees (in fact all members of my family - mum,dad and brother do) I feel that I can achieve one just to say 'ME TOO' and to prove to my parents that they should have let me go then. I know that's daft but that's the way it is. Until I let go of the idea and prove to myself that I AM THAT GOOD I am stuck!!