Whilst in the garden checking on the veg this morning after all that rain -look I found my friend again. I do worry about it as the only 'pond' it has are these two - one is a small jar and the other an old planter. The poor little thing only has water when it rains. Does anyone know if they can survive with out a pond and what do they eat? Is there enough in a small garden? I guess it came from the tadpoles we had in a planter pond (before that broke). It is just soooooo cute.
Although I have not done any art work recently I have been thinking about what I should be doing - some people say that artists need that thinking time but I think of it more like procrastination - I'll do almost anything rather than try some art work. The inspiration has really gone. In September 05 I started an HNC in Stitched Textiles by correspondence with GLOSCAT (in the UK that's Gloucestershire College of Art and Technology). I did not get as much support from the tutor as I had hoped, in fact I had very little help from her, I had felt very despondent and useless and did not bother as much as much as I should have done. Also because I was in and out of hospital from Oct 06 I did not really feel I completed the first year. I have done nothing since until today when I wrote and asked if I could continue from where I left off. I had heard from some friends that the tutor has left and been replaced so the college may let me continue.
I have also got in touch with Julia Caprara (Opus College) about taking the Degree with them but Julia says I should take her one year course first - I think that is because although I have several C&G qualifications I have not actually worked on a 'proper' course with her and she needs to see that I can work in the way she likes. So now I am torn with the idea - why should I prove to another tutor that I have the skills to take a degree - should I even bother to try? Part of me says do a one year course - it would be good experience and preparation for the degree but then the degree course by correspondence is 6 years long!! That in itself is nothing - it took me 7 years to complete C&G Part 1 with Sian but this is at a much higher level!
Oh what should I do? I have nothing to aim for.... I like the challenges on the various yahoo groups I belong to but I just don't seem to have the enthusiasm to do any of the challenges. I sadly feel no sense of achievement on doing any of these.
Most of the time if I'm not in the garden I am on line reading other people's blogs, and believe me there are some fantastic blogs with brilliant work being done I just spend time thinking about various ideas I'd like to do and then not actually doing anything at all!